The gradual, lifelong construction of a state of wonder and serenity

red rose

Theme from Malèna by Ennio Morricone

♥ The purpose of art is not the release of a momentary ejection of adrenalin but is, rather, the gradual, lifelong construction of a state of wonder and serenity. – Glenn Gould
♥ something a lifetime in the making
♥ getting results
I look up to
Everything you are
In my eyes you do no wrong
I’ve loved you for so long
And after all is said and done
You’re still you
After all
You’re still you

♥ There are certain events which to each man’s life are as comets to the earth, seemingly strange and erratic portents; distinct from the ordinary lights which guide our course and mark our seasons, yet true to their own laws, potent in their own influences. – Edward Bulwer-Lytton
♥ real, measurable accomplishment
♥ unexpected encouragement
♥ a heart unveiled
♥ the feeling of returning to a place you’ve never been
I watched a rose-bud very long
Brought on by dew and sun and shower,
Waiting to see the perfect flower:
Then when I thought it should be strong
It opened at the matin hour
And fell at even-song.

– Christina G. Rossetti, Symbols
♥ He had her in his arms, her face like a wet flower at his lips, and all their vain terrors shriveling up like ghosts at sunrise. The one thing that astonished him now was that he should have stood for five minutes arguing with her across the width of the room, when just touching her made everything so simple. – from The Age of Innocence by Edith Wharton

Where the grass is greener

We survived that nasty business yesterday afternoon, but it was a closer shave than I’m comfortable with. Let me tell you — one of the first things I heard when I moved to this town is that tornadoes don’t hit here. Well, thanks for jinxing us, everybody! The tornado yesterday touched down less than a mile from my house. I wasn’t there at the time, but my little puppy was and the storm was between myself and my husband. Needless to say that after everything was over and I knew things were okay I had my little emotional overflow. Gah. I do not handle life-threatening situations very well. Actually…wait…that’s not true. In the moment I was busy making sure that people who were rushing into the shelter (the place where I happen to work) were getting to safety. Myself and a few other coworkers were directing the traffic and never really had a chance to take cover. If it had come down to it and it was passing overhead I believe we would have had time to dive into the vault, but luckily it didn’t come to that.

Anyway, we are safe. For right now. Today is supposed to be a doozy for Oklahoma and much of the rest of the central plains. So please, if you would, say a prayer for all of us here. Yes, we’re used to them, but days when there is an expected outbreak of possibly large tornadoes are not fun for most people.

I am traveling south to visit some family for one of our biannual get-togethers. This is one of my favorite things and I’m excited to see people that I haven’t in a while. And there is a cellar down there. So…BONUS!

Stay safe, y’all.

Photos from last year.

andrew & dad

mama & me

dad & p

paw paw & uncle gary

girls, girls, girls

uncle gary & aunt yvonne

50 of My Favorite Films — 25-21

We’re halfway through!

25. Mrs. Dalloway
I don’t know what I feel. I know that I loved her once and that it stayed with me all my life and colored everything.

I sought this film out because I thought it looked beautiful. It is. The flowers, the parties, the English countryside — it’s all I could ask for 🙂 Throw in a man who loves a woman only to have her choose someone else and it’s just tragic enough to make my list. I love this story. The book has been a favorite of mine for many years and the film does a pretty good job of capturing it. The whole time I’m cheering Peter on, hoping he’ll go ahead and ask Clarissa to marry him. Clearly he loves her!

But you can’t expect an answer to a proposal you’ve not made.

This video features some of my favorite moments from the film.

24. Somewhere In Time
Forgive me. I have never known this feeling. I have lived without it all my life. Is it any wonder, then, I failed to recognise you? You, who brought it to me for the first time. Is there any way that I can tell you how my life has changed? Any way at all to let you know what sweetness you have given me? There is so much to say. I cannot find the words. Except for these: I love you.

When I need a good cry, I turn to this. The magnetic pull of true love cannot be stopped…not even by the space-time continuum. Christopher Reeve has to go back (LOST reference!) to find the woman he’s fallen in love with (Jane Seymour). Well, he’s fallen in love with her photo and there’s some other crazy stuff that gets him to that point, but you get the idea. He goes back, finds her, and then Christopher Plummer walks in like a boss. It’s cheesy and WONDERFUL.

And I’ll say it again. All I really want is Jane Seymour’s hair.

(Just go straight to 4:30 and proceed from there)

23. 13 Conversations About One Thing
I wish, I wish we could see into the future sometimes. That’s the problem, isn’t it? I mean, life – it only makes sense when you look at it backwards.

Thirteen different stories, all connected. I love these stories that feature multiple points-of-view. There are a few of them on this list. Not much to say about this one other than it’s a quiet film. It won’t be for everyone, but I think anyone who appreciates good writing will enjoy it. BONUS: Matthew McConaughey in one of his more serious roles.

22. Pretty in Pink
Well, that’s very nice. I’m glad. Well here’s… here’s the point, Andie. I’m not particularly concerned with whether or not you like me, because I live to like you and… and I can’t like you anymore. So… so when you’re feeling real low and… and dirty, and your heart is splattered all over hell, don’t look to me to pump you back up ’cause… ’cause… ’cause maybe for the first time in your life I WON’T BE THERE!

Let me get this out in the open. I’m a Duckie girl. Duckie always wins for me so (SPOILER ALERT!) I hate the end of this movie. But the rest of it is great. It’s one of those films that I saw at exactly the right point in my life (’98 or ’99). I was angsty enough to really appreciate it and awkward enough to have it strike a chord.

Advice from a pretty-much-grown woman to young girls out there: Choose the guy that is your friend. Don’t listen to the people who say that you can’t make the jump from the “friend ladder” to the “dating ladder” (have you heard that theory? psh). Andrew McCarthy’s “Blane” literally has the least amount of personality of anyone in this movie. I give him and Andie 2 months, tops, from the end of the film. And if you don’t take away anything else from this — stay away from James Spader. Don’t believe me? Watch new episodes of The Office.

21. The Little Mermaid
What would I give
To live where you are?
What would I pay
To stay here beside you?
What would I do to see you
Smiling at me?

Where would we walk?
Where would we run?
If we could stay all day in the sun?
Just you and me
And I could be
Part of your world

No, I didn’t get to play Ariel on the playground, but I still loved this movie…probably more than any other as a small child. Let me tell you how it spoke to me at age 5 in 1989. I thought I was oppressed. Stuck in the middle of nowhere with nothing but my imagination to keep me going. Seriously, that’s what was going through my brain. I totally blame this movie for turning me into a feminist early on 😉

Other than that, the bits about feeling so separated and a world apart from the person you love most — that gets me.